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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

i jux realise smth .. tt my papa is no diff w my other auntie .. which is his siblings .. everytime tok abt money .. everytime gt prob, my dad ll wanna say sell away d hse la .. etc .. knn .. i been hearin tiz for v long liao .. i alr v stress w my wk .. nw he stil gib me prob .. i rili v angry .. i angry til i dunno hw to express .. nw im cryin .. if i cant tahan .. i sure cut myself ltr .. i rili feel so f up lor .. y everything i do he cannot see .. since young he beat me, whack me, scold me, abuse me .. den wad .. ? every since i grad frm sec sch .. i earn money myself .. i pay my sch fees myself .. i nv even take money frm my parent .. thy nv even give me allowance .. i find job myself to keep myself livin on .. den y he stil lyk tiz .. ask me gib meix money .. wad so eva .. den nw leix .. c la .. my meix .. alr 19 tiz yr .. stil depend on my parents .. KNN .. she sibei useless k .. & nw i feel so stress .. partly is cox of her k .. ? when ll she start to help out tiz family .. if wanna calculate arz .. i tel u .. she nv give a single cents to tiz family .. i rili v disappointed . i dun care whether my meix see tiz or nt .. its d fact .. if u nt hapi of wad i said .. i stil ll say .. i ve been tolerate w it for so long .. everytime she ll say wait for cal ..lyk wtf lor .. when i look for job .. nobody ask me wait for cal can .. ? y can she spare a tot for tiz family .. & 7when try to tok to her .. she stil act ah lian .. i noe .. she ll say .. DUN GIVE ME MONEY LA .. I OSO NV ASK U TO GIVE .. & I OSO DUN XI HAN UR MONEY .. !!! u noe when she say tt to me or mama .. she dunno hw hurtful it is . it rili shows tt she stil dunno hw to tink .. she dun spare a tot for tiz family .. & u noe wad .. when she tel mama tt " if she go wk le .. den gt 1k de salary, she ll give mama 400 den papa 200 "
when i heard tt .. i feel so hapi la .. bt i rili doubt tt she ll do tt .. & oso @ d same time .. i oso scare .. cox i noe .. papa ll surely say me .. lyk "c la .. meix give more dan u " smth lyk tt .. bt i oso did buy food d k .. ? & i can swear tt .. i surely spend almost 100 or 200 for d food & hsehold thingy .. y he so selfish .. tink i sud move out of tiz hse .. let he noe hw CAPABLE of my meix is .. so let my meix take care of tiz hse lor .. since he dote her so much .. i rili feel lyk cuttin myself can .. my tears jux couldnt stop flowin out .. mixed emotion .. angry, sad, disappointed, worried .. etc .. i alr tryin v hard to bear .. for my mama's sake .. if nt i tel u .. i sure cal police .. ask police arrest him .. i noe it may sound tt i so unfillial .. bt .. u tink i wish de meh . ? meix everytime ask me dun quarrel w papa .. i feel lyk slappin her . cox she herself oso cant tahan papa .. den everytime when papa stop scoldin .. she ll scold behind him .. u noe .. ? sound so unglam .. lyk back stabber .. idk la . i rili dun wish to tok ill abt my papa or meix .. bt i jux .. cant take it .. sry .. sry for tiz FAMILY MATTERS post ..idk wad i sud do .. wk so fuck up .. family so fucked up .. LIFE SO FUCKED UP .. !!! i jux feel lyk leavin tiz world .. den i dun needa ve so much responsibility .. !!! i feel lyk slpin til tml .. slp all d way .. i wanna 4get unhappiness . y human ll get upset .. ? y cant human has the feelin of bein hapi .. ? y .. ? i rili hate tiz .. i have nobody to turn to .. nobody is listenin to me .. nobody care to listen to me .. !!!

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